so much to love lately it hurts me

sagaponack NY august 2009


been doing a lot of thinking, not saying much these days

small red woman walking away

madaket, nantucket MA july 2009



summer is slowly closing and i don't know how i feel about it, like any other year



edit: but i definitely feel about it

new york heat wave classic

elise & annalise, august in manhattan @ otto's shrunken head




there is a unique understanding of the word
HEATWAVE

living in an old old northeast city
with stoops and fire hydrants instead of air conditioning like those fancy midcountry desert cities prepared for this sort of thing

and all you can eat is drink

i feel like smiling at everybody out of our common experience
still hits me as special these pavement weeks nearing 100F
still makes me feel special
and reminds me where i live
as i sweat it all away

i guess the question now is whether or not i should move to iowa city

edward someplace in queens july 2009

i can see my breath it's the cloud around the city

sociopath dan and that guy he brought along somewhere in queens in july


Well now my brain's on gas stations

Gas Stations Forever

the heat

sagaponack NY in august




no one even wears clothes anymore and this heat is still melting people and the sidewalks are all sticky with it and the air is thick with it so much that they issued an air quality alert telling us well okay we know you have to breathe but it's bad to breathe right now so maybe just stay inside or something,
and we do and we pull the blinds and drink jars of water and eat bowls of fruit and sit as still as possible but then the white noise of the heat gets to be too much in all that stillness
and even in the night it doesn't let up because the buildings and the concrete saved it, and the heat just hangs as if it was heavier than the air above it
but since it's not, you know that it's just heat all the way up to heaven and god

and in the nights we convene in little basements stupidly windowless trying to hear some music to drown out the heat noise
but since we're all melting and can feel the little rivulets of sweat down our sides and are almost blinded by the shine of lights from the droplets of sweat falling off our chins
we all leave and sit on the curbs of the gas stations drinking 99 cent cans of arizona iced tea as brooklyn literally dies all around us

and then i smile to myself and think
no matter how far i travel
there will never be a summer where i will avoid hanging out on the curbs of gas stations

this cold front is so welcome so loved

matthew - smith's point nantucket MA 7/09

YES

self @ moonrise madaket MA 7/09





I am in love with my EveryDay
And it is all the romance i will
ever
need

ninety

jim 6/09




ninety-five, five away from 100 degrees it was and I saw an older man so bored he was playing with the garden hose. hosing in the alley at the tiles. drawing on the aluminum siding like a child but gray and top-bald.
that kind of day with the air again. thick like a soft pillow all around you pushing in so that all your movements are slow. the light tags behind the sound now, its first embarrassing loss in its race to you in Ever.

home life

annalise and jess on our roof, manhattan. 6/09

women with swords

annalise & jessica, manhattan june 2009

new: homecoming everywhere

madaket, nantucket MA july 2009



rose leaves ohio tonight
rose arrives in manhattan in the morning
we'll eat breakfast and smile
bake bread for the evening
toothy grin like the friends we stayed
and stay up late
and get up early
amen